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Khalifa: I regret I lost my life with no remarkable fingerprint

Publish Date: 29-12-2013 | A- A A+

For someone, to lose half of their life in vain, breathing but not living in fact and even not having moments of happiness other than those drug-induced false and quick-to-vanish pleasures followed by nervousness and even craziness; it is really regretful.

For 25 years of addiction, Khalifa suffered from loneliness, insecurity and the loss of his family, friends and even himself. However, it is said that ‘Better late than never’. So, after 25 years of addiction, Khalifa came back to his senses and decided to go in the National Rehabilitation Center to become a new person. Thanks to God, he made it and became optimistic, and his life got much better.

A Closer Look at Khalifa’s Story

“I started to take hashish and heroin shots at the age of 20, and now I’m 46 years old. This means I’m an addict for more than 25 years. I used to spend most of my time with a group of old friends, some travelled in pursuit of higher education and made a success; now they hold good positions: company managers, school principals or deputy principals, etc. the others, including me, chose drugs pursuit.”

 “I didn’t have family problems, but just out of curiosity and recklessness we encouraged one another to live that experience, which we usually called ‘mazaj or wanasa’, and it means fun. We didn’t know that this choice would destroy our lives, health and future; we just thought it was a mere fun” he added.

“After becoming a drug addict, I suffered from psychological disorders and became very introvert. I didn’t talk to anyone and always wanted to stay alone, and I often was exhausted” he pointed out.

“My life turned upside down. I left my job in the Armed Forces, and then lost my family, friends and future. I was completely lost” he added.

“I slept all the day and stayed up all the night, and I sometimes stayed at home for a month drinking alcohol and taking drugs and then slept for two days. Of course, we usually took drugs at a very dirty place, so we could uncaringly throw garbage anywhere around us” Khalifa pointed out.

Schizophrenia

As for how he felt after each time of drug use, Khalifa said “I’m intrinsically an introvert and unsociable person; I never kept in touch with others. However, when I took drugs I had a kind of schizophrenia and became completely different, very sociable and talkative, while when I drank alcohol I became very nervous and aggressive and couldn’t control myself, which caused a lot of problems to my parents who were afraid of me. I also had many accidents and went to jail several times.”

“That was not all; my shape and look also changed a lot. One time, I submitted my photo to obtain a new ID, but the officer in charge got surprised and said ‘is that you?!’ Every year, my shape and look strangely changed because of drugs, unfortunately I didn’t listen to my parents and refused to quit. My father proposed to take me to a specialized center and I went with him, but when I knew that, according to the center’s rules, I had to stay there, I said no” he added.

Khalifa remembers two separate incidents which he wishes they would never happen again. “In the first incident, a friend of mine was very close to death because of excessive heroin shots, but thanks to God he survived. In the second one, another friend of mine drank a lot of alcohol and then took a shot, so he had deadly complications, but also survived. These two incidents are really unforgettable.”

Repentance

Khalifa deeply regrets losing his life and health “I’m sorry for everything and for every day I took drugs on. I’m sorry for the life I lost and for achieving nothing ever. I’m sorry for losing my job, health, friends and family, and for everything I have destroyed since I slipped into that dark world. I’m now 46 years old, and I lost more than 25 years. People at my age have achieved a lot of success in their lives and jobs, had their own families and have become useful members in the society, while I often feel guilty about my parents and myself as I made their life and mine hell-like.”

 “I tried several times to quit drinking alcohol because it made me nervous and aggressive, but I failed, while honestly speaking, I was too weak to stop drug use; it completely controlled me. However, after going in the National Rehabilitation Center, my mind totally changed and I seriously thought of recovery because I got tired and became old, weak and sick, and had many physical and psychological problems” he made clear.

“A friend of mine, who was being treated at the National Rehabilitation Center, advised me to come for treatment, and told me a lot about the center’s services and relieving environment; so, I got the courage and curiosity to try it myself and contacted the center immediately. Thanks to God, today I have completed almost 7 months here” he pointed out.

 “God willing, recovery will not be my only goal; I will also do my best to keep advising drug addicts until they get convinced to come here for treatment” he added.

The Right Place

When asked to describe how he felt on his first day at the center, Khalifa says “I didn’t expect to accept treatment that fast, and when I went in the center I felt that I was at the right place, and that I made the most important decision of my entire life. Honestly, I didn’t expect to make it. I told one of the doctors that my life completely changed since my first day at the center. Glory to God, I had a strange feeling of comfort, peace of mind and hopefulness, and I got so attracted to the center. During my drug addiction days, I always thought that it was impossible to quit, but, thanks to God and the National Rehabilitation Center, I had a new life ahead.”

“I highly appreciate the center’s intensive treatment services and experienced team of doctors and psychological and social specialists who advised and provided me with all kinds of support (medical, moral and psychological), in addition to lectures and seminars through which we shared and benefited from our own experiences and were able to express ourselves and ask any question. We also were able to communicate with specialists at any time and benefited from the financial and educational support provided by the center in the form of training courses and lectures” he made clear. “I think that if I didn’t resort to the National Rehabilitation Center, I would never be cured and the situation would be very complicated” Khalifa stressed.

Privacy and Confidentiality

On how the National Rehabilitation Center ensures patients’ privacy, Khalifa says “The center applies a strict privacy policy, it’s a worry-free policy; no one can violate our privacy without our approval. I remember the first day when I had some tests and checkups to measure my toxicity, the doctor asked me: when was the last time you took drugs?, I said: honestly, I took some just before I came to you, and then he asked me to try getting rid of all the drugs I had to avoid possible conviction. I usually keep the promises I make, so in the beginning I was hesitant, but I started to respond to treatment after several visits to the center and sessions with the doctors and specialists who advised me to keep away from drug addicts.”

“After that, the lectures and lessons provided by the center made us aware of many things, and specialists helped us to solve any problem we had” he added.

Bright Future

“After recovery, I feel like I was reborn. Now, I’m thinking about my future and my family’s future as well. My past is an ugly picture, and I want to replace it with a bright one; my future.” Khalifa said.

“During my addiction days, my life was a really tragic; but now, thank God, I’m so happy with the change and achievement I have made. Before recovery, my father didn’t like to see me, but now all that changed and my parents started to respect and talk to me” he added.

“I will use all the ways to protect myself from this quandary. I’m so happy for what I achieved and – God willing – I will totally forget about the past and pursue my new life” he stressed.

“I would like to extend my thanks and appreciation to all the staff of the National Rehabilitation Center for their efforts and services. I will never forget that they sent us to Saudi Arabia for minor hajj rituals (Umra), and that, thanks to God and the center, I touched the Kaaba. I would also like to thank everyone that supported me, and apologize to everyone I bothered or did wrong to during my addiction.” Khalifa concluded.

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